Thinking Out Loud
Life commitments can quickly add up. Duties with family, responsibilities with work, plans with friends.
If we’re not careful, it can sap every ounce of energy from us. I’ve been reflecting on how important it is with setting and keeping personal boundaries.
One question to ask yourself: “What am I allowing?”
Taking this audit every so often can illuminate patterns of where things are breaking. And hopefully, give us the permission to take back what’s in our control.
My Ammama would have been 80 years old this week.
I remember her with so much love and admiration. She was an incredible woman — graceful, classy, poised, beautiful, and lovely.
As I think about her life, I am in awe of how tall she stood. Despite growing up in a society that had certain expectations for women, Ammama did life her way. She played badminton, taught as a principal, traveled the world, plus looked after the entire family.
She was fiercely independent. But also incredibly loving as well.
A tender warrior. Through and through. 💙
I read a fascinating article on leisure from the Atlantic. It covered how we’ve tuned our brains to stimulation & hustle… to our detriment.
In fact, people are so uncomfortable with stillness that it was studied. “In a 2014 study, researchers left people in a room alone for six to 15 minutes with nothing to do and found that the participants turned to almost any available activity, including administering painful electric shocks (!) to themselves.”
I struggle with this—usually reaching for my phone for idle time. There were a few points the author made to help:
Start small — Sit peacefully for 5 minutes in a pleasant place, letting your mind wander.
Go unstructured — Leave room for “white” spaces on a trip. Keep time open to explore without a plan or schedule.
Soft fascination — Choose activities that gently hold attention — such as wave watching or nature walking. These are more restorative than a traditional leisure activity like TV or reading.
How do you embrace the art of doing nothing?
There was a nice phrase I saw the other day on relationships. “Be with someone who rounds you up.”
It was a wonderful statement — when someone goes out of their way to boost their partner. We are all imperfect and incomplete; but in the eyes of our loved ones, it doesn’t matter.
They acknowledge your worst; but more importantly, encourage your best. I see this trait in my parents. Two vastly different people, but at the end of the day, take each other as they are.
And today: they’ll be married for 37 years! A lifetime of love & rounding up. 💙
Last week, I saw a wonderful movie R.M.N. at the 60th New York Film Festival.
It was a fascinating portrayal of a village set in Romania. It covers a wide variety of topics — such as cultural xenophobia and economic disparity.
As someone who doesn’t see many international films, I had a wonderful experience. The best part of the film was all the languages spoken: Romanian, Hungarian, German, English, French, and Sinhala.
A neat design decision: the English subtitles changed colors as the characters talked (e.g. purple for French, orange for Hungarian, white for Romanian). It created this remarkable effect of seeing different cultures intersect in real time without knowing any words.
I left thinking despite how broad the world is, the issues remain the same. The human condition is universal, no matter where you go.
What international films have you recently seen that you loved?
“Not all those who wander are lost.”
A wonderful quote that my best friend, Varun, often shares with me. It’s a soothing reminder that no path is ever wrong. And an ideal path is only ideal for that person.
Doubt has occasionally crept up in me over the years. Am I moving too slowly in this area? Why aren’t things going a certain way?
But I’m reminded that it’s okay to let it just unfold. There are no proper timelines or straight answers. It’s perfectly fine to figure it out on the way.
You aren’t lost; you’re just living. 🌤
I was at a career workshop recently that talked about managers. There were two types that made me laugh: seagulls and plati-pus (“platypus”).
What’s a seagull manager? Someone who swoops in, poops on everything, and leaves the scene. 💩 Think of any presentation & document you wrote that was completely red-lined.
What’s a plati-pus manager? Someone who shares platitudes — generic & trite statements — when asked for support. 🙈 The “you’re gonna be okay” but not giving more tailored feedback.
It was such an apt metaphor for what we’ve all seen in the workplace. And it made me reflect on how simple behaviors from leaders can really affect the team.
How about you? Seen any critter-like styles in your career? 🦆
Do you struggle to make small decisions?
For me, that’s at a restaurant. I always feel on edge when scanning a long menu — trying to parse through all the options. It leaves me a bit frantic as I internally debate and finally select. I’m scared of getting it “wrong.”
I listened to a podcast that covers this issue: Everyday indecisiveness.
There were a handful of tips shared:
Let go of the idea of the 'perfect decision'. We associate a “bad decision” with being a “bad person”. That puts significant stress on ourselves —we don’t need to carry that emotional weight. Most decisions just need 'good enough', where any choice will do just fine.
Allow yourself three to five options max. Be less choosy about how you choose. Whittle down options to at most 5 options that you really are considering. Any more choices lead to analysis paralysis. And if you’re really struggling, literally flip a coin!
Practice trusting yourself. Yes, it’s helpful to get a second opinion. But remember your instincts are generally good. If the outcome is less serious, rely on yourself for the decision. It’ll feel uncomfortable, but generally, you know what's right for you at any given moment.
Rely on routines: To reduce decision fatigue, keep a general routine of things you plan to do weekly (exercise, meals). For me, a calendar is hugely helpful here with recurring event blocks. Plan for an 80/20 upkeep — the wiggle room is helpful.
Declutter your space. Reduce your wardrobe by a quarter or half. Pick apparel you really love - and sell/donate everything else. It’ll help clear your thinking to get dressed faster — one less decision!
I also like the concept from Jeff Bezos: two-way doors. Just as a door swings two ways, most decisions are reversible or changeable. You can be kind to yourself knowing what you choose is not permanent and can be fixed quickly.
Being decisive is a skill we all can practice. So err on the side of choosing. Everything else will follow!
Energy. We’re all given a finite amount.
It ebbs and flows — but at the end of the day, it’s so personal. And I’ve realized that we need to be thoughtful about how we harness it. I came across a thought exercise to help me understand this better: Energy Review.
What gave me energy?
What drained my energy?
What should I have said no to?
What could have been delegated or eliminated?
I like to do it monthly. It helps me see patterns where I feel full and where I feel empty.
From this, I found I enjoy 1:1/1:few hangouts (group dinners), a novel experience (like a new rooftop or experience), or a creative adventure (seeing a performance, composing music) . Large get-togethers and back-to-back social activities are tiring.
What activates energy in you? What depletes you? ⚡️
I used to believe if you gave a full effort, your results would naturally move up and to the right.
But as I’ve gotten older, the real truth came to bear: progress is messy. It’s never that beautiful curve that bends up. Squiggly lines, no smooth lines.
I’ve noticed this directly in my career. Your best-laid plans go…poof. Change is constant —new strategies, products, managers, locations, colleagues. And throw in a global pandemic to truly turn the tables. Over the last decade, I’ve taken roles I never considered. I’ve moved to cities I had previously written off.
It’s funny though: despite the zigs and zags, I’ve looked back at my career with some level of comfort. As Steve Jobs said, “You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backward. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future.”
A lot of years left to live & grow. Acknowledging we just have to press through the mess. And appreciate the squiggle along the way.
I’ve been reflecting on health & fitness recently. It’s been a series of crests and troughs over the last 20 years.
I know it’ll be a lifelong journey of learning & experimentation. Something I’ve learned in the last decade is to avoid majoring in the minors.
I have read articles, watch videos, and hear podcasts. All to ad nauseam. This snowballed into a cycle of the minutia of “small hacks” or “tweaks” to see results faster.
It was difficult to sustain anything beyond basic fundamentals. I’ve tried to implement these simple 80/20 rules that I read a long time ago.
Doing some movement in the day. Trying to walk & take the stairs when I can.
Having some form of progression over time in your training. Tracking growth via the Strong app (highly recommend) and my Apple watch.
Eating an appropriate amount of calories and protein. Letting go of breakfast, managing emotional eating through better snacks (grapes!), and removing binge-inducing food (aka getting individually wrapped sweets).
Getting enough sleep, rest, and recovery from training. Using natural light to wake up vs. an alarm.
Consistency over time. And using my calendar to help keep me accountable.
My ultimate goal is to work with my body, not against it. And trusting my body will show up if I treat it fairly & gently.
How are you thinking about this space in 2022?
I am fond of this quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson below: Be done with it.
I’m a chronic nostalgic. I tend to ruminate about the past a lot — especially on situations that went awry. And I find myself getting caught up in old feelings of anxiety and worry by reliving situations.
Yes, it’s good to reflect and find the learning; but a constant rehash feels more hurtful than helpful.
There’s something to be said for ‘letting the day go.’ After some rest, tomorrow you can start again.
It’s tough to get negative feedback.
I’ve been in scenarios when I “see red” — feeling defensive and annoyed. My fury gets the better of me, and I lash out. And any sort of amenable resolution immediately breaks down.
What can we do? I heard this adage that made me reflect: Be curious.
It’s almost a meditative reminder to collect ourselves before the emotions bubble up. A simple way to pause, breathe, and ask: “Tell me more.”
Acknowledge a rise is happening and take a time-out. “Hey, can I come back to you in a little? I feel myself getting irritated.” And then using the extra time to de-escalate and process — whatever that means (writing it out, taking a shower, getting a snack.)
If we take on the attitude of discovery vs anger, it may lead to softer, gentler outcomes.
We all have wonderful gifts to give this world. They come in many shapes & sizes, and I’m thankful we’re all so different. That means there are so many ways to give!
But there’s one universal gift that I keep coming back to: benevolence.
It takes no money, no prior skills, no genetic predisposition, and honestly: not much effort. But my goodness: it can catalyze a wonderful positive change in anyone’s life. Perhaps even save someone.
There’s a saying: “Don't add to anyone’s burden.” But if you have a disposition to kindness, you may be able to lift their burden entirely.
So a reminder to myself: there are so many ways to give, but always start with the heart.
This week, I finished reading A Promised Land — an intimate & introspective memoir by President Barack Obama on the first two years of his presidency.
Fitting enough, I’m visiting Chicago this weekend — where Obama started as a lawyer + organizer and continued his climb to the highest office.
I thoroughly enjoyed his reflections in his book — how emotions and logic underscored his thinking, how the pressure of the job affected his family, and how difficult it was to navigate a petulant political climate.
One of my favorite passages was early in the book. Obama was struggling with the decision of running for President. Senator Ted Kennedy shares a thought with him that changes the course of history:
”But you don’t choose the time. The time chooses you. Either you seize what may turn out to be the only chance you have, or you decide you’re willing to live with the knowledge that the chance has passed you by.”
There will be a handful of once-in-a-lifetime opportunities that arrive at our doorstep. I pray we all have the strength & boldness to recognize it and take the shot!
My Aaji would have been 85 today.
I am remembering her with fondness — from her lovely laugh & sincere smile.
There’s a wonderful story that I think about a lot. Coming from a strict upbringing, she grew up in a family with proper rules & decorum. One must always follow a certain path.
This included relationships. In that generation, marriages were likely arranged in your specific community. And if somehow was a love marriage, it was customary for the men to court & eventually propose.
But when she met my grandfather (Dadaji) — everything changed. It wasn’t arranged and he wasn’t from her community. My Aaji? She decided to make her own rules. She confidently proposed to him: “We should get married.” And they were together for ~60 years.
Amazing courage & faith in an uncommon time. Sometimes in life, you have to leap before you look. Love you Aaji!
I’ve been trying to be more mindful of addictive forces in the last month.
One is my relationship with technology. These are triggers that cause a spike in dopamine aka the “the drip” — such as alerts, notifications, badges, and endless scrolling.
Like a slot machine, I was repeatedly pulled back into my devices to numb myself from an emotion: anxiety, boredom, or malaise.
Some of the changes I’ve been trying to implement:
No red badges: It was intoxicating to see the counter go up, especially on social apps that doled out “likes” or “comments”. Turning these off and seeing a clean screen allowed me to choose apps I wanted to go to, versus being told to go into.
Reducing push notifications: I had this compulsive need to look at my phone for any notification, especially a text. I took a hard look at what I really need to be notified immediately vs. in summary.
Removing home-screen apps: When I opened my phone, I immediately looked at app icons that pirated my screen time. Starting at these apps made me wonder what content I was missing. Hiding these away from my home screen was a forcing function to help break the spell of wonder.
It’s been a winding road, and I definitely break down on many days. But I am trying to build my tech environment to move from pure willpower (which fails constantly) to strong systems.
Any steps you’ve taken to detox from the drip?
I recently stumbled upon a song that I loved: Superman by Five for Fighting.
The singer John Ondrasik takes the perspective of Superman, the most powerful comic-book being, speculating on his humanness. An invincible hero who also struggles with doubt, pain, and worry. Here are some of the lyrics:
It may sound absurd, but don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed, but won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream?
And it's not easy to be me.
It was a nostalgic moment for me. I remember listening to it 15 years ago and reflecting on the duality of life. Happy people could be suffering invisibly. Normal folks could be fighting demons.
It made me remember a lovely quotation: “Be kind; everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.” We’ve all been blessed with kindness to pull us up when we needed it most. Saved by a hero in plain clothes.
How can you pay it forward this week? 🦸🏻♂️
I’m a big fan of Daniel Pink, and I’ve enjoyed his latest work: 'The Power of Regret'.
Pink surveyed thousands of people to understand the pillars of regret. He distilled it into 4 main categories:
Connection - “If only I’d reached out. “ This is when relationships fray — either from a sudden rip or a gradual drift. A connection that was once intact no longer is.
Foundation - “If only I’d done the work.” This is when we put short-term gains over long-term payoffs, such as skipping school or not saving enough.
Boldness - “If only I’d taken that risk.” This is when we lack the courage to act, such as failing to start a business or never taking a chance on a romantic interest.
Moral - “If only I’d done the right thing.” This is when we act on what our conscience says is the wrong path - such as betrayal or infidelity. These regrets scar us the most and last the longest.
He mentions how most of us try to follow a path of regret minimization: “No regrets”. But that’s a perfectionist mentality where we’re likely to be disappointed.
Regrets will naturally occur; we just need to harness the learning. We should practice:
Self-disclosure: Relieve your burden. Write it out on paper so you can read your feelings and properly reflect.
Self-compassion: Reframe your thinking. Know it’s not an innate flaw, but a misstep. Treat yourself like we would treat a friend - with kindness and grace.
Self-distance: Remove the rancor. Allow yourself some perspective — how would your future self look at this in 10 years? What would another person in your shoes do?
Pink sums it up nicely: “If you are dealing with one of the four core regrets, project yourself to a specific point in the future and ask yourself which choice will most help you connect with others, build a solid foundation, take a sensible risk, or do the right thing.” 🔮
I was mesmerized by Baz Luhrmann’s Elvis. A fantastic biopic on the rock&roll legend.
It painted a stunning but sobering picture of singer & actor who transformed a generation of music for eternity. But also someone who battled the forces of fame that came with it.
It was sad to see those in his circle also take advantage of his stardust, especially his manager Colonel Tom Parker. It reminded me how important to be careful of the company you keep: “Don’t blame the clown, blame the circus.”
Nevertheless, seeing Mr. Presley (portrayed immaculately by Austin Butler) continue to perform & persevere all the way to the very end left me with goosebumps.
In his final years, Elvis shares: “I learned very early in life that: 'Without a song, the day would never end; without a song, a man ain't got a friend; without a song, the road would never bend - without a song. ' So I keep singing a song. Goodnight.”
